May 23, 2013

winchestersecretfiles:

#I was just casually looking at this gifset #wondering what it was from #and then it just hit me #like a car crash #sorry #bad joke #It’s Dean’s goodbye to Lisa and Ben #Can we just talk about how amazing the #supernatural writers are #because the wording in this scene #is so brilliantly constructed #and of course #Jensen you pull it off just as grandly #So here is a kid and his mom #in a hospital #where they believe they had just been in a car accident #so Dean goes in #a total stranger to them #right there, that says it all #Dean owes them #Dean cannot just walk out of their life #without apologizing #but firstly he says #”I just, uh, I lost control for a minute” #he’s not talking about a car people! #he lost control of himself #he lost control of how a hunter’s life #and a normal person’s life #do not mix #he lost control of his protection over them #something he had sworn he would do #he lost control because he felt so deeply for Lisa and Ben #that he was willing to put them in danger #just so he could be in association with them #It’s selfish to think of it #and Dean did do everything he could to prevent it #but that’s the sad truth #It was selfish #so in the fourth gif #he says he’s glad that their life “can get back to normal now” #because with Dean #their lives were anything but normal #it’s all so heartbreaking #because Dean brought it upon himself #and now Dean has to live without them #because he couldn’t stay away in the first place #I mean, the phrase #Is it better to have lost and loved, than to have never loved at all #because right now #Dean has most certainly loved and lost #and he chose to loose it #Dean brought upon their injuries #so he’s guilty #he also brought upon their loss of memory #so now he’s just alone #with his memories of two people he loved #I mean he loved Ben like a son #like Sam #and he stayed with Lisa #I mean that right there says something different #than all of his past relationships #where they weren’t even relationships #they were just drunken one night stands #except for Anna x Dean #Lisa was his ONLY relationship #however unstable #Lisa and Ben knew about his life #and still took him in #which is why Dean justified his actions about staying #I can’t even compute logical thoughts anymore #I don’t even ship Lisa x Dean that hard #this scene #just gets me

(Source: sammysnipples, via ontheflutterofawing)